If you can pin me down in bed and hold my hand at dinner then you basically meet my standards
Thank you. But I guess the thing is in not happy with my choices. Like I’m not doing drugs or drinking type of voices but the stuff I do to make people around me happy, don’t make me happy. And it doesn’t seem to make them happy either. For example I hate sports. I hate playing them, watching them (although I like watching soccer) and I’m going to do cross country and soccer this year to make my family happy. And some friends. Idk. I’m being stupid and a whiny baby but this is my incite on it and yeah.
I’m feeling so stupid and sad right now and I shouldn’t be.but I feel like such a failure. Especially compared to my friends and family. They’re all good at school and getting scholarships and all A’s and I’m just here and glad I’m passing. My parents are disappointed in me I know. Idk. And then my friends will like, get a test score and it’ll be like 82 and they’re so mad and I get an 82 and I’m like “YES A C” and then they say how they do so bad but “it’s good for you though!!” And it just makes me feel stupid. I hate it. And I don’t have a talent. Like, I can’t draw, sing, act, be funny, play sports, dance, or anything. I can’t even sing my abc’s backwards. I literally just sit around and get in the way. I’m really just in one of those moods where I feel so much hate for myself and I want to be happy but it’s out of my reach. Idk maybe I’m being dumb but I just don’t know what to do with myself right now. :p